Yesterday got to teach two really great Roots of Empathy class and play with kids at playground but also chemo and got a virus with fever so by the end of the day was physically and emotionally not well. I felt so sick and was so despondent and couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t strong enough to sail over these feelings. But really experiencing the discomfort in life is part of life and makes you understand comfort. Anyway still unpleasant. I was in tears but emailed my loving friends asking them for help and they all responded and made me feel so much better and supported. Amazing what asking for help can do. Marisa went to the store and brought me food I needed and Jenny M, Catherine, Lely, Sarah, Nicole, Rachel, Kate, Alex L, Johanna, Margaret, Becky, Maryann and Elena all made me feel better. Such amazing friends. I’m so grateful for them and all my others.
By the time I fell asleep, after texting with Cols and watching Alan Partridge and Simon Shama’s show on Jews, I felt a lot better.
Today I just rested with the kids, watched dog videos on YouTube and emailed a bunch of the DC Council Members about the proposal to change school assignment procedures. Diana and Apple helped. And Aimee and Carolyn (Butler) sent flowers. They have no idea how much that cheered me up. I also had a long talk with my acupuncturist/ wellness guru, Bob Duggan, who really helped. He reminded me that I can be nervous and anxious but still peaceful and that I will be fine and will live a good life. I can do less and work towards a peaceful, stress free life. Even typing that makes it seem more attainable and things less scary.
Back to snuggling Teddy and petting Huck. I’m inspired to teach her tricks after watching all those dog videos. If I had to choose a new career I think I would like to work with dog and horses if not kids.
